i am so lost in you. for the life of me i can’t remember when i last knew my heart, when i last knew it was safe and sound. it’s been a while. you seem to run and hide, and my heart gets carried away with you, as if ensnared and drawn to you by a loose thread of your light reaching out to pierce me and shake me and consume me. i don’t fear this as i feel i should; i welcome it, yearn for it. it thrills me, overjoys me as much as it pains me and destroys me. i am so lost in you and yet i do not wish to be found. never have i been lost in a more wondrous place.